A Short Story - Few pages of a diary
Date 08/23/2009
Dear Diary,
Today Mr. Prakash, tried to talk with me again. I feel he has a biggest crush on me but somehow he has a lot of inferiority complex about himself. I really feel he is a nice person and he can accelerate in his career if he gets little bit confident and if he removes all the negative feelings about himself. He was telling one of his friends when I heard it that he thinks he is unattractive and short and he doesn't know how to talk and how to make friends. I really feel that I should try something for him but I don't want to give any wrong indications. I am really happy in my marriage with Sam and I love Sam like anything
-Shweta
Date 09/12/2009
Dear Diary,
Today, I and Sam saw a hindi movie, one of our favourite and we can just feel similar kind of feelings for each other. DDLJ. One of the most romantic movie ever made. Our love for each other is increasing day by day and there is not even a single moment we can think of where we can leave without each other. Sam gave me a red ruby ring today, very very expensive one and I can't believe he remembered about how much I wanted it six years before when we were dating in college and he was saving for this since last so many month by cutting his taxi bills and eating cheap in lunch hour. I feel I am the most blessed person in this whole world to have sam with me. A man who adores me more and more every day.
-Shweta
Date 10/10/2009
Dear Diary,
Today I had bit of dizziness and was feeling tired. I went to my doctor. As usual he was flirting with me, which I adore by the way, and telling me I am getting more beautiful as I am getting old and how Sam is the luckiest guys in the world. He told as a part of routine thing he is suggesting biopsy. Some how I had bit odd feelings while giving samples for the different tests.I give samples for different test as a part of check up done every year and I don't know what's different today. Reports will be there after 2 weeks anyways!
-Shweta
Date 24/10/2009
Diary,
Today Doc called me and told me he wanted to meet me and Sam as soon as possible. I asked everything ok, he told me nothing to worry just drop by. Sam is out of town to delhi, so I went by myself in the evening. As soon as I entered I felt some different shades on doc's face. He asked where's Sam and I told he's out of town. He told he needs to talk to Sam. I told and forced him what's wrong. He told biopsy results came. I have a last stage of stomach cancer. Doctor is surprised as I never noticed anything wrong with my body till that day and never went to doctor about it. As per doctor I have 12-15 months left in my life. I almost fainted. I told him not to discuss this with Sam and I will tell him at the right time as he will be devastated.
-Shweta
Date 26/11/2009
Dear diary,
Today, again as I am doing since las many days, I again talked with Mr. Prakash, I told him he's the most genuine person I have ever met and he is very cool guy to hang out with. I told him I would love to spend time with him and may be more! I can see almost a twinkle in his eyes. I can see that he was already feeling confident about himself. He even asked me out for dinner. I told him to give me a call in the evening at home and then I can decide. In the evening he called me when me and Sam were having dinner, I stepped out from the dining table and went in another room to talk(we never do that as we share everything with each other). And I tried talking in a voice that looks suspicious to Sam and told Mr. Prakash, how much I adore him and how much I will like to go out with him on the next night. I came out and told Sam that I will be very late tomorrow evening as I had some urgent client meetings scheduled.
-Shweta
Date 28/11/2009
Today, I sent an SMS from Prakash's cell to my cell when I saw him going to rest room about what a wonderful night he had with me and how much he wants that all nights are like that. I made sure that my cell displays his name as unread message when I reached home and put my cell on the table so Sam can read it. I even made a dummy call and pretended talking with Prakash about our future life after my divorce with Sam. Diary, I am feeling awful now but I know whatever I am doing is good for Sam and its better if he hates me so that it will be easier for him to forget me. Meanwhile I can see Mr. Prakash, becoming a very confident person and how he talks with other colleagues and what kind of energy he puts in the work. Every one seems to be surprised by the change and only I know the reason.
-Shweta
Date 10/12/2009
Diary,
Things are going as planned. I am feeling weaker now and dizziness is increasing little bit. Looks like 12-15 months are going to be shorter and I might leave much before that. Sam has started hating me too much and I can see his eyes red and we hardly talked with each other any more. I know he must be feeling really bad but I also know this is better for him. In couple of months I will leave this city and go far away from both of these men. And I am sure whatever I have done is going to help both of this guys in their prersonal life
-Shweta
Date 25/12/2009
Diary,
Today doc called me and told me, that biopsy results were of some other person and due to "minor" mistake it got changed with mine. "Everything is alright" for me ! I am not sure what to do now!
-Shweta
PS: Not completely original, something from childhood memories
